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Everything's happened really fast all of a sudden. It's been hard to work my head around it all. they're good guys though. I can't... pay attention to my head right now. yeah.

Chuck seems very nice. I've liked being around him. I'm glad you two have a chance to know each other.

It's good. having people from home. I mean, we're friend. ~~right~~, but having someone from home relates different. I'm trying to get to know them like you're getting to know Chuck. Its just hard right now.

what kind of cards?

It is, yeah. I know what you mean. I'm kind of scared that I might fuck up and he'll decide I really am dead weight after all.

His dad is here somewhere in town but we haven't spoken so Chuck's kind of all I have, you know? From home. I don't think they get along very well.

Any kind of cards but I've had a thought. Ask Joe (that can't be his actual name?) if he knows the game of 20 squares / the royal game of Ur. I'm not sure where he's from (Persian??) But I think it's more of a central-eastern thing than Italian. I bet he could draw out a board if he knows it and you will impress him with your knowledge of ancient board games.

Not my business but have they been together since the crusades or just knew each there then?

I know what you mean. I'm scared I'm not going to live up to the expectations of the others. I don't know any of them well, but they're all I have now, and half of them are missing right now.

Chuck's dad is here? Oh no, poor guy. I mean, lucky too, but to have relatives here seems so heartbreaking too.

You're really going to make me go learn a new old time game just to impress Joe, huh? Not a bad plan.

I don't really know? What I heard was they fought each other on opposing sides of the religious war. Killed each other 'many times'. It's kind of romantic in a sad way.

I think it's pretty romantic but I'm a sucker for that kind of stuff.

It's never been my strong suit.

I'm a sucker for that kind of thing as well, even if it's not my best suit. The two of them are really adorable together. I get the feeling the entire world can drop away from them and they'd still stand tall.

That's some soulmate stuff right there. I'd love to have that some day but I don't think it's really in the cards for me.

You're telling me. I'm literally going to have to watch anyone I love, live and die. It's not going to be possible for me anymore.

Christ, that's just hitting me too. that goes for everyone, not just my family...

[Oh Jesus Nile.. yikes]

Not necessarily, they found each other you might find someone too. You said half your group is still at large, surely there are others too?

There's just the five of us. That's it. That's my family now. My world of four people.

[and they were going to lose Andy, but she didn't bring that up.]

That you know of. Lots of people in the world, Nile. Don't let yourself spiral on that right now.

Lots of people. 5 immortals. That's all. But, it's fine. I'm not spiraling. I'm not the type of person someone falls for anyhow, so it works out well.

that's bullshit

That's how it is.

No that's bullshit, I'm sorry. Anyone would be lucky to have you.

[She stared, surprised, from the floor, up at her wrist, then snorted, smiling. What a Romantic.]

[but oh, the string of text comes in fast, very fast, full of what-ifs: ]

There are aa lot of factors, Raleigh.
I have others to worry about. Secrets to keep to keep them safe. Secrets I shouldn't even have said to you.
but how about this...

So I'm home.
Not only do I have to lie to the person
From the get go
I wont age. I wont age and they will. Questions will come up. Why do I not age? The truth comes out. I'm immortal, sorry love. There's bound to be angry about not sharing my gift with them.

Or, I tell them
From the get go
And they find it amazingly cool.
Romance is good, but things don't always last.
We break up.
They sell that secret to someone. Tell the wrong person. A new lover maybe. They're either seen as crazy, or they have proof, and me and mine are yet again in trouble.

Maybe another 200 years pass before a new Immortal appears. Maybe it's destiny. Maybe we find each other and it's love. There's still a 200 year wait, and complications. Maybe they don't love me. So it's another wait. Countless years.

Maybe I find someone here...
Maybe it's the best thing ever...
Maybe love knows no bounds...
Maybe it transcends time and space...
Maybe it's someone as good hearted as you that I'd literally break the trust of my new kin and tell them all this...
And maybe it's great.
But then I get to watch this place tear them apart. Break them apart. Break ME part. Kill either of us over and over.
And through all that they get sent home at some random point?

All of it.
I've now thought on all of it.
It's not bullshit.
It wouldn't be Luck to fall for a immortal.
It's tragedy.

And no, I'm still not spiraling. I'm just realizing the truth.

Thing is, as he reads her texts and thinks about it, really thinks about it? She's right. It's tragic. And that's heartbreaking. And there's nothing he can say to counter it.

Being immortal sounds fantastic at first but the consequences are enormous and heavy. Very.. very heavy. So what do you say to something like that?

There's a delay in his response but when it comes it's clearly been deliberated over.

I wish I had the answers for you.

It reminds me of this quote I heard once that soulmates exist because their atoms were near each other during the big bang. So you and that person are stardust linked in such a transcendental way that it doesn't matter when one or both of you die because those atoms will always seek one another out no matter what body they become next.

I guess I like to think that if you fell in love and lost that person one way or another you would always find them again.

[She likes that he takes the time to think about it though. It makes her trust him more with this secret. Like she's not absolutely betraying everyone in telling him.]

[And then his reply. Yeah, boy was a Romantic for sure. That was... cute.]

I like that. There's something romantic about that. Tender.

Oh, in a big, big way, Nile. Big Mood.

Yeah. I'd like to live in a world where we have space for tenderness. I haven't for a long time but the change comes from us.

It's something I should think about more often.

You're a real romantic, Raleigh. You'll find someone someday and absolutely charm them. That person will be the luckiest person in the universes.

[That person isn't even a thing and she almost feels jealous of them.]

Haha we'll see. I'm a pretty awful with that stuff.

But it would be nice to feel safe enough to trust someone wth my heart.

That came out more dramatic than intended don't listen to me.

Naw, that wasn't dramatic. I think the Safe thing is my biggest issue. Might never, you know?

[And yet she absolutely feels safe talking to HIM. What a dumb girl]

Trust is always a hard thing to deal with. So, what kind of person do you look for? Maybe your soulmate will get stuck here as well.

Good question but looking for love here feels a little pointless.

And I'm not sure I'm ready.

But hypothetically...

I guess I'd want someone who always had my back, even when I'm struggling. But they would always challenge me to be the best version of myself and I could challenge them back. We'd lift each other up and seeing them thrive would make me happy. love is a dialogue to me, it's all about communication. Teamwork. Smart is important. Funny but well timed. Good looking doesn't hurt but captivating is more important. I don't want to be screwed around.

I'd like someone who makes me feel safe. Who I would make feel safe.

Reading that back is a tall order, huh.

[she lays there reading his so called 'tall order' and sighs. Yeah, a god damn romantic, but that all seemed reasonable. Almost describes what she looked for in people.]

Yes, theoretically speaking.

Doesn't seem unreasonable to me. Seems like a good Love Resume.

And you're definitely a lady killer on more fronts than appearance, Flyboy. You're calm and collected, strong and handsome. You've got a good mind to you and work well with others. You're pretty much the perfect guy. Anyone would be pleased to love you.

That is a hell of a compliment. Thank you.

I am actually a mess but I'll take it and run. Might be he nicest thing anyone has ever said about me.

What about you? What would you look for?

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