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No that's bullshit, I'm sorry. Anyone would be lucky to have you.

[She stared, surprised, from the floor, up at her wrist, then snorted, smiling. What a Romantic.]

[but oh, the string of text comes in fast, very fast, full of what-ifs: ]

There are aa lot of factors, Raleigh.
I have others to worry about. Secrets to keep to keep them safe. Secrets I shouldn't even have said to you.
but how about this...

So I'm home.
Not only do I have to lie to the person
From the get go
I wont age. I wont age and they will. Questions will come up. Why do I not age? The truth comes out. I'm immortal, sorry love. There's bound to be angry about not sharing my gift with them.

Or, I tell them
From the get go
And they find it amazingly cool.
Romance is good, but things don't always last.
We break up.
They sell that secret to someone. Tell the wrong person. A new lover maybe. They're either seen as crazy, or they have proof, and me and mine are yet again in trouble.

Maybe another 200 years pass before a new Immortal appears. Maybe it's destiny. Maybe we find each other and it's love. There's still a 200 year wait, and complications. Maybe they don't love me. So it's another wait. Countless years.

Maybe I find someone here...
Maybe it's the best thing ever...
Maybe love knows no bounds...
Maybe it transcends time and space...
Maybe it's someone as good hearted as you that I'd literally break the trust of my new kin and tell them all this...
And maybe it's great.
But then I get to watch this place tear them apart. Break them apart. Break ME part. Kill either of us over and over.
And through all that they get sent home at some random point?

All of it.
I've now thought on all of it.
It's not bullshit.
It wouldn't be Luck to fall for a immortal.
It's tragedy.

And no, I'm still not spiraling. I'm just realizing the truth.

Thing is, as he reads her texts and thinks about it, really thinks about it? She's right. It's tragic. And that's heartbreaking. And there's nothing he can say to counter it.

Being immortal sounds fantastic at first but the consequences are enormous and heavy. Very.. very heavy. So what do you say to something like that?

There's a delay in his response but when it comes it's clearly been deliberated over.

I wish I had the answers for you.

It reminds me of this quote I heard once that soulmates exist because their atoms were near each other during the big bang. So you and that person are stardust linked in such a transcendental way that it doesn't matter when one or both of you die because those atoms will always seek one another out no matter what body they become next.

I guess I like to think that if you fell in love and lost that person one way or another you would always find them again.

[She likes that he takes the time to think about it though. It makes her trust him more with this secret. Like she's not absolutely betraying everyone in telling him.]

[And then his reply. Yeah, boy was a Romantic for sure. That was... cute.]

I like that. There's something romantic about that. Tender.

Oh, in a big, big way, Nile. Big Mood.

Yeah. I'd like to live in a world where we have space for tenderness. I haven't for a long time but the change comes from us.

It's something I should think about more often.

You're a real romantic, Raleigh. You'll find someone someday and absolutely charm them. That person will be the luckiest person in the universes.

[That person isn't even a thing and she almost feels jealous of them.]

Haha we'll see. I'm a pretty awful with that stuff.

But it would be nice to feel safe enough to trust someone wth my heart.

That came out more dramatic than intended don't listen to me.

Naw, that wasn't dramatic. I think the Safe thing is my biggest issue. Might never, you know?

[And yet she absolutely feels safe talking to HIM. What a dumb girl]

Trust is always a hard thing to deal with. So, what kind of person do you look for? Maybe your soulmate will get stuck here as well.

Good question but looking for love here feels a little pointless.

And I'm not sure I'm ready.

But hypothetically...

I guess I'd want someone who always had my back, even when I'm struggling. But they would always challenge me to be the best version of myself and I could challenge them back. We'd lift each other up and seeing them thrive would make me happy. love is a dialogue to me, it's all about communication. Teamwork. Smart is important. Funny but well timed. Good looking doesn't hurt but captivating is more important. I don't want to be screwed around.

I'd like someone who makes me feel safe. Who I would make feel safe.

Reading that back is a tall order, huh.

[she lays there reading his so called 'tall order' and sighs. Yeah, a god damn romantic, but that all seemed reasonable. Almost describes what she looked for in people.]

Yes, theoretically speaking.

Doesn't seem unreasonable to me. Seems like a good Love Resume.

And you're definitely a lady killer on more fronts than appearance, Flyboy. You're calm and collected, strong and handsome. You've got a good mind to you and work well with others. You're pretty much the perfect guy. Anyone would be pleased to love you.

That is a hell of a compliment. Thank you.

I am actually a mess but I'll take it and run. Might be he nicest thing anyone has ever said about me.

What about you? What would you look for?

Then you need to know nicer people, because hardly any of that was flattery and more just true fact.

Someone with a pulse? lol, kidding, that's too general.

I don't really know.
I suppose someone kind. Someone protective but still needs protection. Someone who knows how to smile. That sounds dumb, but it's an important one actually. Someone with a mind of their own that can be as stubborn as I am, to balance me out?

Someone kind, I suppose. My bar isn't set too high. But, this is all theoretical, in the long run, for me. I'm a terrible date anyhow.

I don't really know any people, so I guess that's part of the problem. I've spent so long trying to shut the world out I'm not sure how to let it back in without hurting myself.

You said it better, though. All those things sound pretty perfect.

And for what it's worth we're both terrible dates but I think you're pretty incredible. There are tons of decent guys here (or girls? No judgment) who should be climbing over each other to take you out.

Hurt is, sadly, important. It lets you know what good times are or were. But, can I ask, why'd you shut out the world?

Edited 2020-10-15 04:31 (UTC)

[Oh no, she's scowling at the second half of this because it made her blush. Thanks.]

Shut up! People should NOT be climbing over anything let alone bodies to get to me. Those people are most likely trying to kill me. Just saying.

....But i am pretty incredible. I'll take that. ;)

lol good, It's important to know your worth.

At least 6 camels. At least.

[She noticed he skipped her question. Nile Will Remember This]

Only 6? I was thinking 8, at least. Maybe I need someone who will indulged my greedy side too? Damn.

8 is big talk but I bet you're worth it. Alternatively 6 camels and some goats?

I do like goats.

6 and two goats seems reasonable for all this.

All this being one tiny package of kickass and problems. You know I can kick your ass too.

I'm still recovering from the last time you kicked my ass lol

Edited 2020-10-15 12:30 (UTC)

That's turning into a trend.

Hows the head btw?

No long term damage. It's almost gone already

Brain still functioning well, then? OR as well as it can?

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