We're okay now. It wasn't so great there for a little bit.
I don't know if Chuck told you but I kind of sort of shot Mako? In the leg. On accident!!! I didn't mean to. The gun scares me. He's okay now. Korra healed him.
[He is not okay. But the most recent, most savage trigger is a direct result of Wu's death so how is he supposed to talk about it to him without making him feel bad. Wu can't help. No one can. It's not anyone's problem but Raleigh's and he just... He isn't a well man.]
[Oh boy. Exxxhale. Okay, here we go. Half of Raleigh immediately regrets saying anything. The other half is grateful but still wants to throw his Fluid down a well.]
[ But they haven't talked about it. Wu didn't think that that night, when everything was awful and Raleigh was clearly not in a good place, was a good time to talk.
Now, though. He's quiet for a long moment. ]
We should talk about it. About what happened.
[ A beat ]
I'm not mad at you. If you were worried about that.
[ He prompts softly. He thinks maybe he knows what Raleigh means, but doesn't want to assume ]
It's been a few terrible months. More, maybe. All the time we've been here has been terrible. I think it's admirable that you made it this long, doing pretty well.
[Raleigh laughs, though it's slightly hollow and chased by the noise of him dragging his hand over his face. When he speaks again he is just, so tired.]
Well I guess my days were numbered before I cracked, huh.
Well, I don't know about cracked. But you, you and Mako, you keep doing this. You can't just keep going and keep going and thinking that you'll be fine!
You need to take a minute to just be, Raleigh. You're going to run yourself ragged, emotionally, physically.
[ A beat. ]
You should come over! A steam would do you some good. And, yes, I know it's hot out. It doesn't matter.
[Listening to Wu's voice rings different words through his ears. Begging to be let go. Bargaining for his life. That horrible, horrible feeling of knowing it isn't going to work. Raleigh's wrist stings with a sudden, shooting pain and he gives a small noise, holding the phone with his ear and shoulder as he frees his hand to hold himself. Oh, god.. fuck.]
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I doubt there are raccoons in space.
They're not usually pets on the ground, either, but I'm not sure why. They're great pets.
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Fritter is a great pet! They should be. I love having her around, she's getting so much smarter! She sits on command now!
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That's great, you two are finally bonding now?
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We've been on a bunch of adventures!!!!!
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Huh.
I know Mako is a serious guy and he's going through a lot right now but that sounds odd.
How are you guys? In general? How are you? For real.
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I don't know if Chuck told you but I kind of sort of shot Mako? In the leg. On accident!!! I didn't mean to. The gun scares me. He's okay now. Korra healed him.
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Yeah he told me. I'm so glad he's okay. I'm sorry I haven't checked in, I haven't been very social.
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Are you doing okay??? I know it's dangerous to go out right now, but I miss you guys!!
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We miss you too.
I'm okay. I'll be okay.
[He is not okay. But the most recent, most savage trigger is a direct result of Wu's death so how is he supposed to talk about it to him without making him feel bad. Wu can't help. No one can. It's not anyone's problem but Raleigh's and he just... He isn't a well man.]
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Be okay? Did something happen? Did something else happen????
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No, nothing new.
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I guess I'm just struggling a little.
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Hey, Wu.
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He picked up.
What does Wu say? ]
Hi! Hi. Uh, thought this might be easier to talk about. Out loud.
[ Is it? Maybe it's harder. But it's better. They need to talk. They haven't really had the chance since... everything. ]
Is it about what happened with, uh, me? [ And Sam? ]
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Lying doesn't feel right, either. Hm.
Do they really have to talk or.. can they just ignore it forever like it never happened.
Raleigh sighs.]
Ah.. a little bit, I guess. I dunno, it's a lot of things.
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Now, though. He's quiet for a long moment. ]
We should talk about it. About what happened.
[ A beat ]
I'm not mad at you. If you were worried about that.
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Raleigh is quiet for a moment, trying to scrape his words and thoughts together into something vaguely coherent.]
Well. Thank you for your honesty. I'm glad.
.. I spoke to Sam. I think we're square. He told me he's spoken to you, too?
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[ They're two very distinct people in Wu's mind, even if they share a body.
He's quiet for a long moment ]
Why did you do it? Hurt him like that?
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I was angry. After you're.. With your ghost.
[A sigh]
I just don't care, anymore. Wu.I needed to avenge you. Avenge me, I guess. It felt like it happened to me. And then I stopped thinking.
I'm not, um. I'm not doing so good. There's nothing you can do and it's not your fault.. but. There it is.
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[ He prompts softly. He thinks maybe he knows what Raleigh means, but doesn't want to assume ]
It's been a few terrible months. More, maybe. All the time we've been here has been terrible. I think it's admirable that you made it this long, doing pretty well.
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Well I guess my days were numbered before I cracked, huh.
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You need to take a minute to just be, Raleigh. You're going to run yourself ragged, emotionally, physically.
[ A beat. ]
You should come over! A steam would do you some good. And, yes, I know it's hot out. It doesn't matter.
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That's a kind offer. I might take you up on it.
[ How non committal, Raleigh. ]
I think I just.
[Listening to Wu's voice rings different words through his ears. Begging to be let go. Bargaining for his life. That horrible, horrible feeling of knowing it isn't going to work. Raleigh's wrist stings with a sudden, shooting pain and he gives a small noise, holding the phone with his ear and shoulder as he frees his hand to hold himself. Oh, god.. fuck.]
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[ He starts, but then Raleigh sounds hurt and Wu's words die in his throat ]
Raleigh?! Raleigh, are you okay?
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