[Oh boy. Exxxhale. Okay, here we go. Half of Raleigh immediately regrets saying anything. The other half is grateful but still wants to throw his Fluid down a well.]
[ But they haven't talked about it. Wu didn't think that that night, when everything was awful and Raleigh was clearly not in a good place, was a good time to talk.
Now, though. He's quiet for a long moment. ]
We should talk about it. About what happened.
[ A beat ]
I'm not mad at you. If you were worried about that.
[ He prompts softly. He thinks maybe he knows what Raleigh means, but doesn't want to assume ]
It's been a few terrible months. More, maybe. All the time we've been here has been terrible. I think it's admirable that you made it this long, doing pretty well.
[Raleigh laughs, though it's slightly hollow and chased by the noise of him dragging his hand over his face. When he speaks again he is just, so tired.]
Well I guess my days were numbered before I cracked, huh.
Well, I don't know about cracked. But you, you and Mako, you keep doing this. You can't just keep going and keep going and thinking that you'll be fine!
You need to take a minute to just be, Raleigh. You're going to run yourself ragged, emotionally, physically.
[ A beat. ]
You should come over! A steam would do you some good. And, yes, I know it's hot out. It doesn't matter.
[Listening to Wu's voice rings different words through his ears. Begging to be let go. Bargaining for his life. That horrible, horrible feeling of knowing it isn't going to work. Raleigh's wrist stings with a sudden, shooting pain and he gives a small noise, holding the phone with his ear and shoulder as he frees his hand to hold himself. Oh, god.. fuck.]
Look, I'm trying really hard not to be mad at you, Raleigh. And you're making that very hard. Do you really just want to sit there and feel sorry for yourself? Fine! Wallow all you want. It's not going to do anything.
[ Wu lets him hang up. He doesn't say anything, just sits there, stunned.
He was mad, yes, but not that mad. Mad because Raleigh took things into his own hands without talking to Wu, but Wu talked to Sam and knows he's not mad--
The whole thing is complicated. And now, he's afraid he's made it more complicated. He can't help but feel like he just lost a friend.
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Hey, Wu.
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He picked up.
What does Wu say? ]
Hi! Hi. Uh, thought this might be easier to talk about. Out loud.
[ Is it? Maybe it's harder. But it's better. They need to talk. They haven't really had the chance since... everything. ]
Is it about what happened with, uh, me? [ And Sam? ]
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Lying doesn't feel right, either. Hm.
Do they really have to talk or.. can they just ignore it forever like it never happened.
Raleigh sighs.]
Ah.. a little bit, I guess. I dunno, it's a lot of things.
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Now, though. He's quiet for a long moment. ]
We should talk about it. About what happened.
[ A beat ]
I'm not mad at you. If you were worried about that.
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Raleigh is quiet for a moment, trying to scrape his words and thoughts together into something vaguely coherent.]
Well. Thank you for your honesty. I'm glad.
.. I spoke to Sam. I think we're square. He told me he's spoken to you, too?
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[ They're two very distinct people in Wu's mind, even if they share a body.
He's quiet for a long moment ]
Why did you do it? Hurt him like that?
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I was angry. After you're.. With your ghost.
[A sigh]
I just don't care, anymore. Wu.I needed to avenge you. Avenge me, I guess. It felt like it happened to me. And then I stopped thinking.
I'm not, um. I'm not doing so good. There's nothing you can do and it's not your fault.. but. There it is.
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[ He prompts softly. He thinks maybe he knows what Raleigh means, but doesn't want to assume ]
It's been a few terrible months. More, maybe. All the time we've been here has been terrible. I think it's admirable that you made it this long, doing pretty well.
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Well I guess my days were numbered before I cracked, huh.
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You need to take a minute to just be, Raleigh. You're going to run yourself ragged, emotionally, physically.
[ A beat. ]
You should come over! A steam would do you some good. And, yes, I know it's hot out. It doesn't matter.
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That's a kind offer. I might take you up on it.
[ How non committal, Raleigh. ]
I think I just.
[Listening to Wu's voice rings different words through his ears. Begging to be let go. Bargaining for his life. That horrible, horrible feeling of knowing it isn't going to work. Raleigh's wrist stings with a sudden, shooting pain and he gives a small noise, holding the phone with his ear and shoulder as he frees his hand to hold himself. Oh, god.. fuck.]
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[ He starts, but then Raleigh sounds hurt and Wu's words die in his throat ]
Raleigh?! Raleigh, are you okay?
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Yeah, I'm good. I'm good, I'm good.
What- um. Steam room?
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Wu- just. God, everything is wrong. How could I possibly ignore it!?
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[ He lets out an annoyed breath ]
Look, I'm trying really hard not to be mad at you, Raleigh. And you're making that very hard. Do you really just want to sit there and feel sorry for yourself? Fine! Wallow all you want. It's not going to do anything.
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[He catches himself before he says something mean. Verbal sparring is not his strong suit. He's more a stay quiet and then snap type.]
Why the hell would you be mad at me? For Sam? I'm sorry if I'm not handling shit well, I'm not okay and I don't want to talk to you about it
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[ He lets out hard breath from behind clenched teeth ]
Fine. Don't talk to me. But talk to someone. I'm mad at you, but I care about you, Raleigh. If you're hurting, that. I don't want you to be hurting.
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Reign it in, Becket. For once in your life.]
Good bye, Wu.
[So. Bitchy. Hanging up now bye.]
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He was mad, yes, but not that mad. Mad because Raleigh took things into his own hands without talking to Wu, but Wu talked to Sam and knows he's not mad--
The whole thing is complicated. And now, he's afraid he's made it more complicated. He can't help but feel like he just lost a friend.
He really hopes he didn't. ]